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I'm a 25 year old woman. There's been a lot of points in my life where I haven't been happy. And I've lived a lot of my life without a "desire" to live. I've even made attempts on my life in the past, during my darkest times. Recently, near my 25th birthday, I had a "make it or break it" moment. I thought, if I can't decide to live, for MYSELF, what is the point in continuing further through this "life". So I decided to live, with wanting to die. In the beginning it was hard. It has only gotten easier. During those darkest moments in my birthday month, I looked at my Zox bracelet and chose to "Continue". This was a choice that hurt, because even though I desperately wanted to move forward, there was a voice that kept telling me to end it all. So I fought with myself, an inner war some would call it. To "continue" is to live through the darkness, to see a brighter tomorrow. I no longer struggle with suicidal ideation, and I am stronger then I have ever been. I want others to know that no matter how hard it gets, no matter how hopeless everything seems in the moment. There's always light at the end of the tunnel. As long as you can find a reason to "Continue" forward.