I am going through rough times mentally. Last year too many things happened that I didn't find a way to cope with. I started seeing a therapist, insurance deems it bad enough to send me to a special retreat for 5 weeks soon (which is telling enough as the unwritten rule says they will deny at least once, not so for me!). It is extremely difficult for me to accept help. The condition has a bad influence on how well I perform at work and my job is to save people. As a former merchant marine officer the design reminds me of my love for the sea. And it reminds me that I can rise and achieve even while my mental condition holds me back. My work is still way way above standard. I am still rising on the career ladder. I am being recognized in a good way! Still I rise! I am not going to let this shatter me. I will still make my way! I will still rise to the top! I will still raise my standards. I will not let this keep me down forever! I will rise! Even with this burden! STILL I RISE!